About the girlfriend thing.

[bubosquared]

Yes, I always said I didn't need a lover. I stil don't. I just. I want. Someone to love. Or multiple someones to love. Love as more than just friends, you know.

I loathe myself for this. It'd be okay if I was just crushing on a specific someone, but wanting anyone, any random person, to bestow my caring on? It's just ... so much not what I stand for. Gah.

I suck.

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[rigour.livejournal.com]

[aoboshi.livejournal.com]

Loneliness gets boring after a while, I guess. I was never into the relationship thing either, but now that I am in one...it has its ups and downs, but...you put yourself into it and reaching out to another person on a whole different level is just...wonderful. Sometimes painful, most of the time stressful (for me), but always wonderful.

[voldsom]

Hugs

I think I know what you mean. It's something that goes beyond friendship and into what I sometimes imagine family might be like. With me it manifests as a desire for physical contact. A need to just touch or hug someone occasionally.

I don't think there's anything wrong with it, just... Needing to give something of yourself to others. Which would make it almost a good thing.

[crotalus-atrox.livejournal.com]

You don't suck! ::hugs:: I adore you, Melle, you're a sweetheart, and I totally understand where you're coming from. I felt like that too.

And when I take over the world? I am gonna marry you and Avarice, and we can rule the world together. ::smile::

[evilbliss.livejournal.com]

Awwww...you don't suck, Melle. I think everyone has that want at some point in their lives. (And for some people they have that want all the time, but that's another story for another time.)

Anyway, I'm probably not making much sense, but I know exactly where you're coming from. :)

*hugs*

[paranoidschizo.livejournal.com]

Don't worry. We're in the same boat. That Kieth guy that I made out with and gave my number? I'm praying he calls with every ounce of my being. Ugh. I hate to think that I'm in lust because I'm not, but my stomach gets all cramped up when I think about having someone to hug and touch and kiss like I did last night.

Of course, he was tripping on three hits of acid before he met up with us, but I hope I waited long enough afterward so that I wasn't taking advantage of him. But he was so lonely! I was so lonely! It just made sense. His friend was rolling so that was no use.

So, you're not pathetic, and I hate myself for getting my hopes up. But the way he smiled at me at 6:00 when we pulled out of there with him on my lap... either he's a really good actor/bastard, or he really dug me. Damn it. My friend told me not to get my hopes up.

It's the human condition to want to love someone.

[ex-shadowlig161.livejournal.com]

*big hugs* You don't suck, doll. I know exactly how you feel. I'll be sitting on the bus, or walking down the street, or anywhere, and I just watch all the girls. And I wonder. And I know I can never do anything more than wonder, and it hurts. I don't even want a girlfriend, really... I just want someone to cuddle and hold and love. I think that's all anyone really wants. So don't feel bad... because you're an amazing, sweet, wonderful person, and you deserve that, and you will find that. I know you will. *more hugs*

[safti]

I shall reiterate something that's been said a few times now: you do not suck.
We all need someone to express emotions to and through. We all need at least one person who knows that we care, because we do care, and the need to love is just as strong as the need to love.

We all need someone to cuddle, to adore romantically.

[Sex is something else, though it can be nice when the two coincide [or more painful, depending on whether or not it's directed at a particular person or is just a general feeling, and in the first case whether or not it's resolved [like, actually happening as opposed to a painful unresolved crush/love]].]

*hugs*

[almightychrissy.livejournal.com]

I wish I knew what to tell you, but I don't, other than you most certainly do NOT suck.

I do sorta know what you're feeling. I think it's naural to want somone to be all warm and fuzzy with. Little kids have stuffed animals and as we get older, we tend to want "real people" stuffed animals so to speak. I think people are just wired to crave romance, if they weren't, fanfic wouldn't be so popular and the movie industry would have a lot less money :)

And regardless of whether you do or don't want someone to love, I still think you rock :)