About the girlfriend thing.

[bubosquared]

Yes, I always said I didn't need a lover. I stil don't. I just. I want. Someone to love. Or multiple someones to love. Love as more than just friends, you know.

I loathe myself for this. It'd be okay if I was just crushing on a specific someone, but wanting anyone, any random person, to bestow my caring on? It's just ... so much not what I stand for. Gah.

I suck.

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[bubosquared.livejournal.com]

It's not the need in and of itself, it's the feeling that anyone would do as long as I was able to love them as more than friends. It makes me feel so ... pathetic? Desperate? Something.

I hope things work out between you and Keith. :)

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[paranoidschizo.livejournal.com]

That's what I mean! I feel so pathetic, because on one hand it was a party and it could be just a one-night fling. But on the other hand, it's got potential to be so much more. I'm trying to just keep it as something that was great while it lasted and try not to jump for the phone every two seconds. ::sigh::

Please please please please call, lol. ::being pathetic::

[bubosquared.livejournal.com]

You didn't ask his phonenumber?

He'll call. I know he will.