About the girlfriend thing.

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Yes, I always said I didn't need a lover. I stil don't. I just. I want. Someone to love. Or multiple someones to love. Love as more than just friends, you know.

I loathe myself for this. It'd be okay if I was just crushing on a specific someone, but wanting anyone, any random person, to bestow my caring on? It's just ... so much not what I stand for. Gah.

I suck.

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I think I know what you mean. It's something that goes beyond friendship and into what I sometimes imagine family might be like. With me it manifests as a desire for physical contact. A need to just touch or hug someone occasionally.

I don't think there's anything wrong with it, just... Needing to give something of yourself to others. Which would make it almost a good thing.

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But I have the physical thing. Not to the point of sex, but then I don't really want sex. I want romance. I don't know. I'm confused right now.