About the girlfriend thing.

[bubosquared]

Yes, I always said I didn't need a lover. I stil don't. I just. I want. Someone to love. Or multiple someones to love. Love as more than just friends, you know.

I loathe myself for this. It'd be okay if I was just crushing on a specific someone, but wanting anyone, any random person, to bestow my caring on? It's just ... so much not what I stand for. Gah.

I suck.

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[bubosquared.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I'm just new to this whole thing, you know? Rarely even had this close friendships before, and those all ended badly or just ... dwindled.

[evilbliss.livejournal.com]

Same here. For the longest time I didn't even have close friends. Even now, I barely keep in touch with the people I'm the closest to. *shrugs*

*more hugs*