About the girlfriend thing.

[bubosquared]

Yes, I always said I didn't need a lover. I stil don't. I just. I want. Someone to love. Or multiple someones to love. Love as more than just friends, you know.

I loathe myself for this. It'd be okay if I was just crushing on a specific someone, but wanting anyone, any random person, to bestow my caring on? It's just ... so much not what I stand for. Gah.

I suck.

Comments

[evilbliss.livejournal.com]

Awwww...you don't suck, Melle. I think everyone has that want at some point in their lives. (And for some people they have that want all the time, but that's another story for another time.)

Anyway, I'm probably not making much sense, but I know exactly where you're coming from. :)

*hugs*

[bubosquared.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I'm just new to this whole thing, you know? Rarely even had this close friendships before, and those all ended badly or just ... dwindled.

[evilbliss.livejournal.com]

Same here. For the longest time I didn't even have close friends. Even now, I barely keep in touch with the people I'm the closest to. *shrugs*

*more hugs*