About the girlfriend thing.

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Yes, I always said I didn't need a lover. I stil don't. I just. I want. Someone to love. Or multiple someones to love. Love as more than just friends, you know.

I loathe myself for this. It'd be okay if I was just crushing on a specific someone, but wanting anyone, any random person, to bestow my caring on? It's just ... so much not what I stand for. Gah.

I suck.

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Thing is, I've not really had any real feelings between ages 14 and 19, so I never have any idea wether it's okay for me to be feeling, say, jealousy, or wether what I'm feeling is intense friendship or more. Emotionally, I'm still in my puberty. :/