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[bubosquared]

So there's all sort of shit goin' down in boyband land, and as usual, I'm on the sideline trying to figure out what the hell's going on. As per usual.

I'm not being bitter or anything, cause hey, I know fully well that this is a consequence of my attitude towards fandom. See, I see the fandom world as a great big house. Lots of different rooms, lots of people in it, partyin'. Different rooms, different cliques, a number of diva's, a number of leaders, a lot of "average" fen. And me. I'm sort of sitting on a windowsill, from the outside, looking in. Talking to people who might wanna talk to me, happily, sometimes even daring to wander inside to get the attention of someone I really want to talk to, but never really straying too far into the house.

I don't like to get too involved with the inner workings of a fandom. Or any big group of people, for that matter. I'm very, very bad with people, and I'm tired enough from handling the handful of friendships I have now. Couldn't handle all these people, all the cliques, the back stabbing, the flame wars, everything. Also, I'm hardly ever into things that have such big fandoms. I mean, hey! This is the Melle of RareSlash fame here, people. ^_^

The one time I did get involved in a fandom to the point of being close friends with the "inner circle," I got myself burned to badly I learned my lesson good. No more.

Because rationally speaking, there's a lot of advantages to staying on the outskirts. I get the intense fandom talks without the politics or the cliquiness. I get the interaction with my readers (all what? five of them? hee!) without the pressure of a reputation or "Write more!"s. I'm a noble unknown in fandom, and that's the way I like it.

The only thing is that, as I said above, I'm always out of the gossip loop, which is rather frustrating. but eh. Small price to pay.