I don't have prayers.

[bubosquared]

And I shouldn't care in times like this, but people calling others to pray are .. doing something to me. I don't pray. I don't believe in a meddling god. I don't believe praying solves anything. I want to go over there and help clear the rubble, search for survivors, donate blood. That would help, if only a little. I can't go there, and I'm not allowed to donate blood because of the tatts and the piercing. All I can do is hope everyone I know is okay, that their families and friends are okay, and try and send a message to those who have lost people that they will not be forgotten.

But I will not pray.

I cannot pray. I don't know how. Not everyone is Christian, not every christian prays. I feel as if my failure to pray is somehow a sign that I don't care enough. I do. I just care in different ways.