I shouldn't re-read my own stories. This used to be the one story I was really really proud of and now I can't stop noticing all the misspellings, the punctuation and grammar errors, the horrible cliche's ...
The one story of mine that continually gets reviews, and *good ones* at that, sucks. It's the most horrible story I've ever written, the timeframe is all fucked up, it's one big steenking cliche...I'm not even gonna link to it, it's that bad.
But I don't want to take it down, because it seems to entertain uneducated sappy suckers...
Until I started writing Metallica slash, the most feedback I'd ever received on one story was for a story that I almost didn't post because I didn't think it was that great. Everyone loved it. An X-Files fic rec site recced it. I still don't quite get it. It's sentimental, cliched songfic.
That may be partially because the general public wants cliche'd, sentimental fic. They're not looking for experimental things, they're not looking for intense, they're looking for a fix of something that went/is wrong with the canon.
I just went to look at the story, and I cringed even just skimming it. I murdered the characterization. I Mary Sued everyone in it. It's overly sentimental. I gave Krycek a family to show that he's really a good guy. *sigh* This is why I don't need crit on my older stories; I can do it myself.
Why do you think none of the stories actually html'ed at my site are older than 2 years, except Chris [which was beta'ed]? I couldn't bear to see them every time I revamped the site.
It happens as we mature as authors. I gave feedback to an author for a story they wrote over four years ago and had forgotten about. It had spelling errors and major grammar problems. They weren't as happy with it now as they were then... (And I felt silly when I realized how long ago they posted that story.) I have stories I wrote four years ago that are truely horrid... that at the time I thought were beautiful... and one is listed at God Awful Fan Fiction ()it's so bad.
I know, I know. Thing is, that was written over a year ago, and I've not actually written all that much since then. I feel like I'm slipping, like I'm gonna end up like my mother; an ex-writer.
Sad that at 20, my greatest fear is still the same as when I was 10: to one day wake up like my mother. :(
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The one story of mine that continually gets reviews, and *good ones* at that, sucks. It's the most horrible story I've ever written, the timeframe is all fucked up, it's one big steenking cliche...I'm not even gonna link to it, it's that bad.
But I don't want to take it down, because it seems to entertain uneducated sappy suckers...
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Happens as we mature as authors...
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Sad that at 20, my greatest fear is still the same as when I was 10: to one day wake up like my mother. :(