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[bubosquared]

You know, as shiny as the iPhone looks, I'm still put off by the touch screen. This may just be me, though, as I just know I'd bread it completely the first week or so, and be completely SOL.

I'm wondering if I really want to go to Escapade this year. It's largely a money thing, as I'd have to use money from my big tax refund to pay for everything, and I'd really rather not have to dip into that at all, let alone for that much, and then there's the fact that apparently, I'm getting old, because the prospect of travelling that far/long is exhausting me already. (The last-minute planning and the fact that work is stressing me out to the point of wanting to cry isn't helping, obviously.) And I just feel like I've drifted out of slash fandom as a "community" quite a bit this past year, and focussing more on non-fanfic at the moment, and I've sort of drifted away from people that're gonna be there as well (that sounds passive-aggressive, but isn't meant to be, honest!) and I just. I dunno if at the moment, the pros outweigh the cons. (... No pun intended.) And maybe I just need to stop thinking about Escapade as an annual tradition and start thinking about it as something I go to if/when I can, my con of choie if I go to a con in the US at all, so to speak? Or something, I dunno. it'll help me not feel as bad about not going any given years, at least?

I know I need to make a decision and book/plan things by Sunday, which is unfortunate because between work (making me cry and my stomach hurt) and other stuff (various financial/practical things stressing me out and contributing to above crying and stomach pains), I'm not in the best mood to be making decisions like this.

If I don't go, I'm still going to take a full week off at least once this year, and also go on a weekend trip somewhere. Rome, maybe, or Paris. Somewhere that isn't Belguim, anyway, and not nearly twenty hours of travelling away either. Take an actual vacation for once. And god, re-reading all that, I'm clearly not as much back on the upswing as I thought I was. Maybe I should look into this whole Seasonal Affection Disorder thing, because augh, and I have no reason to be this stressed and randomly upset anymore.

Comments

[bubosquared.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I want a holiday and to actually go somewhere at some point this year. And I do kinda wanna go, to meet people, but I don't think I'd be very good company this year, so yeah.

*snuggle*

[dantesvendetta.livejournal.com]

I'm going to get a passport this year, so if you ever want company on a weekend jaunt, I'm more than willing :oD

And you're always excellent company. I say so. :op

[padredon.livejournal.com]

The invite to Halifax stands if you want it. I'm happy to show you arround Atlantic Canada. Its a very pretty part of the world and you can be as grouchy or anti-social as you want. I get it. *hug*

[bubosquared.livejournal.com]

It would be a much shorter flight, at least. :D (Or, I might give in to Anna and go visit her for Book Seven: Harry Potter and the Fandopalypse.

[padredon.livejournal.com]

Which would be a much longer flight but oh the mayhem.

[bubosquared.livejournal.com]

Nicotine patch + my superpower-like ability to fall asleep on anything that moves = win! :D