Strange Love ramblings

[bubosquared]

Fuckers. All of them.

No, really.

See, I wanted this to be a collection of interlaced but separate stories. Stories one could read on their own and still have them make sense, but read together (ideally, in the right order), they become a narrative. For example, Here And Now ends with Jesse watching Nick and Sean kiss. The story I'm working on now, Easy, starts with Sean's thoughts during that kiss. I'm thinking this is gonna end in bed (because Sean's easy, snerk), and the story after that'll be from Nick's POV, starting where Easy left off -- and becoming really angsty, but that's besides the point.

So here's my problem. Here And Now is third person POV. Easy is first person POV. There's a story somewhere in the vague future that's second person POV. I'm still amazed that it's all sticking to present tense, to be honest. (Although large parts of Nick's story are past, but that's because they're flashbacks.)

I know that this doesn't have to be a problem, this whole POV-skippage. In fact, as long as this is all just online, it doesn't really bother me. However. I have a fairly clear idea of the story arch I want this thing to follow. I may not know any details, and the ending's rather foggish, but I know where I'm going with this, and at the rate it's going now, I may very well have this thing wrapped up in a year, year and a half or so. (*knock on wood*)(And god, it really shows how much more patient I've become that a year is fast to have finished a novel-sized thing.)(Wow. behold my awkward sentence structure.)

And when (if?) I do finish it, I'd like to see this thing in print. (I've been looking into these self-printing thingies, and they look fairly cheap. I know 'real' writers scoff them, and yeah, they don't count for references or whatnot, but I'm still not looking for fame or fortune. I'd just like to see Strange Love in print, with the title and my name (or pseud) on the cover.) And for some reason, print seems to call for subsistent POV. I'm not sure why, except maybe that online, they're just stories, listed together, but in print, they're all in a particular order, and they'll be read that way. I don't know. Maybe I'm worrying in vain. maybe I'll never actually finish this. Maybe I'll never print it. Maybe I'm just talking out of my ass here and no one cares about POV skippage.

Another thing is the spelling. I use British spelling, even when I'm writing in a USAian fandom. In fanfic, it doesn't bother me, because I know I'm not the only one who does this. (Although it happens a lot more the other way round, as evidenced by most VG fanfic.) Basically, as long as American characters aren't suddenly calling each other "mate," and British characters aren't using "y'all," I could care less about spelling.

Except, apparently, with SL. It's probably because this is my first contemporary universe, and in fact my first actually American characters. The Shintaid is (high) fantasy, in which most characters speak the Queen's English, and Mirku has a bit of a Cockney thing going. Nutsoidz is general English, but geared towards Queen's English. Ditto for VRStory. But Jesse, Sean and Nick are American kids. I briefly considered making them British, but it just doesn't work as well -- if only because it never gets that hot in the UK, snerk.

So, they're American kids. And I'm constantly wondering wether I'm not accidentally having them use British phrases or expressions. (I never have this problem with American-based fanfic, because in those cases I just hear the character's voice, and nationality be damned.) I worry about wether I can use British spelling in an American "universe". I wonder if it looks odd to anyone but me to use both "colour" and "y'all" in one paragraph. I wonder if maybe I should change all my spelling to American as part of the proofreading process.

And I can't believe I'm gonna have to do research for this damn thing! Argh! Nick, I hate you. You and your trauma's. And Sean, you could bloody well be more supportive, dammit. If you hadn't insisted on getting into fights all the time, I never would've had to find out about David and what he did to Nick. *smacks them both* Bitches.

So yeah. Tentatively planning ahead:

• Here and Now -- Jesse watches. Life on the road.
  Status: Finished.
• Easy -- Sean thinks it shouldn't be this easy, but it is, and he is.
  Status: In progress.
• After, or possibly Damage (working titles, will most likely change) -- In which Nick thinks about David and his reasons. (Note: David is Nick's brother. I do not like David. Neither does Sean. Nick is ambivalent. As evidenced by the story. But I digress.)
• A vague number of stories about the end of the 'tour', being at home, Jess' parents driving her batty, getting a record deal out of the blue (or rather, out of Sean's older sister's girlfriend, because I'm all about the females-with-power, yo!), recording (including, hopefully, sex-in-the-recording-studio), promoting the album, Jesse kicking a sleazy marketing bloke in the nuts (Hee! I love Jess. ^_^), the record taking off like a cruise missile, and the start of another tour, a 'real' one this time, complete with tour bus and roadies.Could take anywhere from 5 to 50 stories. Probably in the neighbourhood of 10-15, though.
  Status: Not even started yet.
• An as-of-yet untitled story in second person POV -- A roadie's observations. In which Nick and Sean Don't Talk, even though they really should.
  Status: Not even started yet.
• More stories about decadence, and Nick and Sean grow apart. I have no idea wether they'll stay that way or not. Do they feel like happy-ending people? Should they go back to 'just' friends? Or just lose contact altogether? Who knows? Not me. (I never lost control. You're face. To face. With the man who sold the world. Okay, Bowie moment over now.)
  Status: Not even started yet.

Anyway. Research. Yes. Anyone know where I can get good information about child-abuse? Specifically by siblings? Anyone? Bueller?

Comments

[natlet]

Ask Taylor on the child abuse front; I think she's been researching.

(ohfuckohfuckohfuck. okay. need to drag my stupid ass back to bed, but noo, i'm going to school. gah.)

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[bubosquared.livejournal.com]

Thanks, yo! ^_^

Are you ill? (In the physical sense?) Then get yo' ass in bed, child!

(Wow. Behold my mixed speech patterns.)

[natlet]

Not ill, just a dumbass. I IM'd you the full extent of my dumbassness, did I not?

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[bubosquared.livejournal.com]

Yes, you did. And *hug* you'll be fine. It'll be fine. Everything will be fine.

[natlet]

It won't. *curls up in your lap*

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[bubosquared.livejournal.com]

*pet* Aw, honey. It will. You'll see. (Deep breaths and chocolate, hun.)

[natlet]

*snifflepout* Ooo, chocolate. Good idea. *wanders off toward cafeteria*

But, anyway. Today is just a bad day for me to be in school. I wanna go home and hide in my bed.