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I used to have this nice, normal shirt. Long-sleeved, black, with a silver chinese symbol on the fron. It was nylon. My dad ironed it. Bye bye, sleeve. Yesterday, I removed the sleeves and decided it looked cool enough to wear with my vynyl trousers, and then figured this was too butch!punk to wear the velvet choker with, so I put on my dog collar and stuff and went all the way. With glitter and stuff. Looked good. Had fun clubbing. They played Cindy Lauper's Girls Just Wanna Have Fun -- my theme song! :D I resisted the urge to shout "The disco ball? The disco ball!" when I spotted the disco balls Go me.

After four precious hours of sleep (growl, why can't my body accept that eight hours of consecutive sleep is a Good Thing?) I woke up, put on some clothes, put on Just Going Out make-up (less glittery than Clubbing Makje-up, but more goth than Work make-up) and went to the cybercafe to spend some time before going to my grandmother's for dinner.

It wasn't until some little girl was staring at me that I realised what I look like. Docs. Black jeans. Metallica tank top (clearly showing my bra, and some cleavage), and a long-sleeved, black-with-some-silver mesh shirt. Black nailpolish, silver eyeshadow, eyeliner and black lipstick.

Hadn't realised ho much this is growing on me. Is nice. Wonder what gran'll think, though.

Lola update: this morning, she peeked out from her hiding place and stared at me for quite some time. Progress!

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Fandom is driving me insane. I feel like unsubbing from almost all of my lists. Because there's so much drivel and I usually delete 90% of what comes into my inbox. The only lists I still read are SA-Talk and anything on RS-X or musicianslash that's interesting.

HP4GU has disappointed me. The name alone -- 'grown-ups'. And the anti-fanfic party.

Most of the fanfic lists are 2/3rd one-liners lately. I'm on digest on HPslash and I only skim the subjects to see if there's more Protective Bonds or Irresistable Poison, and because I'm still not sure if I'mna post The Game or not. I would unsub from RareSlash, but ... I can't; despite everything, it's still my baby. It feels like I'm contemplating ripping off my arm or something. Even though I haven't actually moved or even felt said arm in nearly a year.

LiveJournal is such an easier way to be involved in fandom. I get to chose people I like to hear from, there's no annoying one-line responses cluttering up my inbox, and I know for a fact there's no one on my friends list who will condemn me for my RPS-ness or my love of puppies.

I don't know. I think what I really want is a forum for my original stories with the same sort of 'feel' as good slash list. I was hoping OriginalSlash would be that, but it isn't and I'm not sure how to fix it.

Maybe I'll try that. Tomorrow, I'll unsub from all but a select few fandom lists, and look for good general writing lists, and try to re-launch OriginalSlash.

New pastures! Here I come.