bubosquared | Noooo!

Current Mood: sad
Current Music: Take That - Everything Changes

Noooo!

This is way too strange. I was a fan of the Beatles when I was 12, and while others have surpassed them in my list of favourite bands and artists, they'll always hold a special place in my heart because of all the memories attached to their songs.

And now my favourite one is dying.

I know, I know, John's been dead for decades now. But you know, that happened before I was a fan, before I was even alive. (Eleven days before, to be exact.) I never knew what it was like to know he was alive. He's always been dead. But George isn't dead, he's dying. And it feels like part of my childhood is dying too.

(I'm being overly dramatic, aren't I?)

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Being overly dramatic, that is.

It's a very strange feeling when people you worshipped as a child, or even a teenager or adult die. It's one of the reasons I have a really odd thing about River Phoenix, for example. And I'll never forget the first one, an actor named Jon-Erik Hexum, who most people nowadays have never even heard of. He died following an accident with a gun, that he should never have been playing with in the first place. But when I found out, I cried for days. It is like losing a part of yourself, a part of the culture you grew up with.

I understand.

Thing is, I never really had to deal with this sort of thing before. The Beatles were split up and John was dead by the time I became a fan; ditto for the Sex Pistols and Sid Vicious; Bob Dylan is old but seemingly immortal; U2 isn't gonna split upany time soon. Jase leaving Metallica was my first brush with seeing a band I was a fan of change like this. In a way, I wish i'd have been a Take That fan with the rest of my generation, so I'd have had more people to share the experience with. And this. It's just. Hard.

That's for the support and understanding, babe.

And the first time is the hardest, and the one that will stay with you.

It's different when they're already no longer with us. James Dean, for example. But it's hard when it's something like this. Or Jason. I have never been into a band like I am into Metallica, and it's a different feeling. It's even different from when someone on TV leaves a show. I think that's because it is real people and not fiction, and it really isn't as easy to change RL as it is to change what a scriptwriter does.

It is hard. Another one for me, recently-ish, was JFK Jr. I still don't know why his death affected me. I mean, sure, I thought he was v. good-looking, but I never got obsessed with him. But when he died, it was like something went missing, and I can't explain it better than that.

And George...I'm still reeling, you know. It's going to be hard. It already is.

And I'm always here.

Yeah, I've never had to deal with change before. With knowig a band had split/someone was dead and they'd never get together again/be revived, sure. But change is different.

And now it looks like I won't have to deal with it just yet. Sheesh, people.

Well, they say humans don't take change well, and I think fandom in general bears that piece of wisdom out.

And yes. It would be nice if there was some restraint in news reporting when it's something like this.

I do dream, don't I *g*?

The day John Lennon was shot. I was just shy of ten years old, and it was the first time I ever saw my mother cry.

And I remember Jon Erik Hexum too, and the show he was on - "Cover-Up". With Jennifer O'Neill as the fashion model turned spy-type-person. Damn I'm old.

I should call my mother. She's probably not taking this news well. About George, not the news that I'm old.

You're a decade older than I am? Shock! Old person alert! ;D

Hey, give your mum my sympathy, and tell her it may not be true.

I will. Thanks!

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